insideofmeliesasickness
sometimestoohardtofacebutneverlying
attimesofdiscomfortandfearifalltomyknees
breakingapartallihaveeverknown
itdragsmedownintothedirt
wishinghopingprayingforwhatidonotknow
onlythatsomethingwillrelievemysuffering
itdigsandburrowsandswallows
sadtosayifeelitapartofme
notknowinglifewithout

thoughtsofonedayreturningthissickness
bloodandsweatandtearshaveallranout
thinkingandfeelingbecomethesame
asolitarypresenceofmyselfneverfeltmoreabound
thispainifeeliscomfortingifcomfortisnotbreathing

thissicknessfillsmeupwithhatredandsorrow
bleedingarmsarerunningout
sooniwillhavetofindawayout
awaytosubmittoitsdemands
theskiesturnblack
ifailtoseethebeautyinitsbreast
brightstarsshinenotforme
ihavelostwhatliesinsideme
thestrengthtofighththisshit

giveupiwillnotmyheartremainsintact
thereseemstobeawallaroundit
breakingthroughmustbeitsintent
imustendureforalittlewhilelonger
surelyitwillgrowtired
tiredoffightingwagingwaronitsselfjusttowin
untilthen