I am afraid to let it out
im running myself to death
trying to hide from this
I always new it was a dream
Oh it was way too good
I have done nothing in this life
I dont deserve what little taste of happiness I had
The taste of what it was will always haunt me
Im so sorry that you had to be the one
I know that you didnt need to carry this
Let go for yourself Im a lost cause
In case you hadnt noticed im falling down
Everyday I shared was all a lie
I cant help but to wonder were you would be if not for me
Im on fire and nothing can put me out
Let me burn let me burn
Should i ever see you again
I will look the other way
I took it all away from you and its just to late
Its too late to give it all back
Im dancing to a dead beat
All the sunshine is gone
And im falling apart in the dark

Her name is stella

She stares into the window
Looking for something that isn't there
Her hair is bleeding with perfection
As she stands in the rain
Longing to live a life she can love
I watch from afar wanting to be noticed

Don't be afraid she says
I will only be here for 2 days
then I will be gone
I see her now in my dreams
She is everything I thought she would be
Her name is Stella

Her voice so pure
When she speaks to me
I step back into the dark
To be in the presence of beauty I am not fit for
As the rain falls, she dances alone
I am witnessing an angel

Don't be afraid she says
I will only be here for 2 days
then I will be gone
I see her now in my dreams
She is everything that I thought she would be
Her name is Stella

As I hold her hand I start to sweat
The moon radiates and she radiates
My knees are trembling and she radiates
This has been such a long fall
I have been falling since I saw the rain
Learning all along the way

Don't be afraid she says to me
I will only be here for 2 days
then I will be gone
I see her now in my dreams
She is everything I hoped she would be
Her name is Stella

I know she will be gone soon
I cant find the strength to tell her
Burning up inside to love her
I'm caught in her web
Tangled up in all that is before me
Am I too simple, to boring of a life

Well she says don't be afraid
I only have 2 days
then i will be gone
I see her now in my dreams
She is everything I want
Her name is Stella

I want to love you
Tonight is ending too soon
Time is fading fast and so is she
I don't want to be your friend
I want to love you
Then I black out and your gone

Don't be afraid she says to me
It has been 2 days
I have already gone
I see her now in my dreams
She is everything to me
Her name is Stella

I'm standing in the rain all alone
I can hear you dancing in the night
I wish to see your face just for one more night
Somewhere out there you are shining in the light
Stunning someone else with your beauty
Another is falling , Falling for you tonight

I'm not afraid tonight
The days grow long and keep passing
You are already gone
I see you in my dreams
You are everything to me
I will never forget and always keep looking
Looking for that window hoping that one day
I can be on the other side when you are looking in

Sometimes it seems

Sometimes it seems that all I have is gone
I know not what to feel
If I wander endlessly on these streets
will someone see me or will I have the chance to shine
I step into the darkness waiting for an answer
Will this be enough to set me free
I learn from nothing
it takes me a life time to fill my heart and only a moment to lose it all
I'm silent long enough to hear the cries of the world
I don't know how to interpret what it is saying
It is too much for one, but if I don't try
Will another listen
I'm brought to my knees by feeling
This feeling of helplessness in a sea of doubt
Answers are hard to come by
Finding a way is sometimes more trouble than subsiding
Sometimes it seems tough to comprehend
It is all to hard to let you see
Swimming is hard to do on land
I am filled with pain not only for me but you
I cant explain the way
Apathetic is what i am becoming
It is laughable to think of what has come
When your to blame thats all thats left
For me its something more
Growing up in a world that is so cold
Warmth is hard to find and when you do its too late
Staring into the sun and only seeing darkness
Thats what it is and then sometimes it seems